Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Don't rock the boat when it's not in danger

Well, i've seen scores of articles and heard plenty of opinion being thrown around regarding this small lil' social issue since the day i know how to read and write.

Hmm...I am the person who prefer to maintain the status quo no matter how bad the condition is if only i could preserve the lil' peace i'm used to all these while and also if i'm already used to it, why change? Don't fix what ain't broken rite? But if it is broken in others' eyes, is it my problem or theirs? It sounds like a majority's view, and i'm in the minority, or is it only a dilemma of the loud minority?

I can't be sure, and i don't have the facts, or maybe i chose not to see. Either way, i believe there's a peaceful way to solve every problem the society faces. If not, nature will set itself back to normal in a violent way. Again, it will still be ok in the end, problem is, i want the means to be a peaceful one, not a revolutionary kind of scary sweepover stuff.

Have you ever imagine how a revolution works? Innocent people face uncertainties in their daily lives, nothing can function like normal days and it creeps the hell outta me, at least.

Well, you see, my point is, if you don't have the facts, do not simply accuse. The thing is there's this Chinese proverb saying "one person spread rumour, millions will spread the truth". Eventually, Pygmalion theory will hold and what is deemed to be untrue before will become true henceforth, as we wish. Now then, we wouldn't have seen that coming until it's too late, don't we? Unless we're an outsider looking in... Most of the time, you either have to be god or something to see the whole cause & effect thing.

I only have one wish: To not rock the boat. Every thing has a way about it. Not necessarily the easy way, but definitely not the violent way either. Mahatma Gandhi has shown us the way. Sadly, there are so few, like so few people that even i can even count with my fingers that would do things that way - his way.

I think i'm still not tired to show ppl what i saw, what i think and what i believe to be true, YET. But i might be wrong, but there's no harm thinking good about something rite? Or is there?

Most might say i'm delusional and a hopeless optimist when it comes to this topic. But i would like to reiterate this: how bad a condition are we now? Maybe i am blessed, others are suffering. True. I certainly don't deny that. But seriously, look around us, look further, look far and wide. Who else are suffering? The poor? Who are they? People just like us, or people who we thought are supposedly being protected?

Now think again, there's a lot of social problems out there and we can't possibly solve everything in a lifetime or a million lifetimes, on our own or otherwise. But it doesn't hurt either to spread good and at least tone down on the non-productive screams. It doesn't help much, not to say it might actually aggravate the problem further. For every energy we send out, there's a corresponding one with the same magnitude that comes back at us. So, every word we say, every action we take will impact upon everyone and us eventually. Maybe that's not a bad thing you say considering it's for a noble end. Yup, point noted. What about those who are already in deep shit and would just prefer to live everyday peacefully with all they have?

I would still love to see poverty and unnecessary inequity to be eradicated eventually from the face of the earth, but it won't go away in a generation, nor with only writing. But i do hope everyone can look past the differences and assumptions and preconceptions and start working together to make this world in the image of what they want it to be.

Bitterness will result in sweetness only when we're willing to swallow it first. Change starts from ourselves. Expect change only when we're willing to deal with the consequences that follow, predicted or unseen. And yes, when we are only asking for the other party to change, while we sit here and do nothing, are we any better than the ones we condemned?

Think before you act, or say anything. That's what our parents keep reminding us of. For every action we take, be brave to face the consequence. Think long and hard. Yes, we're heading towards a better direction every day and no, it might not be as how you want it to be most of the time, but that's the whole package that comes with change. No shortcuts.

And again, i am still a hopeless optimist. And i don't mind being proven wrong. Just that after that, don't come to me and tell me that i might actually be right after everything has been done and nothing can be undone. I can't help after that. Remember, with power comes responsibilities, use it wisely. Don't regret anything. It's too late for that. It's not one person or a few persons you're talking about, it's a whole nation, physically, mentally, psychologically and socially, in the long-term. Think about it. I might be wrong. Just don't rock the boat if it ain't useful to do so.

Monday, March 7, 2011

Emo but not quite

I know my loyal readers are reading. And thank you for always being there :)

You, you and you (don't count, it's just a literary device :P), yes, YOU ! Thank you for tolerating with my intolerable behaviour at times and weird antics till you feel like slapping me most of the time.

They say time is everything.

Yes, time spent together in proximity is everything. It reveals a lot about someone and it also meant that the chemical/brainwave/aura exchange between people is also heightened, prompting integration and understanding. Especially the interaction is more than * years old.

So, i would love you all to know that i cherish all the times we had, good or bad, nice or ugly, funny or plain weird, happy or sad, rain or shine...your presence is my blessing :)

I would never forget these 4 years i had here.

Monday, February 21, 2011

Tired but happy

Contrary to my previous posts (and the author for the post right before this one ain't me, obviously :P), this will be a super short one.

Advice to everyone: Open your eyes and ears and you will realise that all the best things are already yours or around you. Stop looking around, and cherish those closest to you. They are all you've been seeking and wishing for all your life, if only you could see with your heart.

Cheesy, yup, but not made out of nothing, i have evidence to back it up, considering i am the type who won't believe something until i see it with my own eyes. Or feel it so strongly it can't be just imagination.

Loves.

Satisfied.

Smiling contentedly.

And a big bear hug :)


Sunday, February 13, 2011

Wabisabi!

 Currently listening to: For the Reunion by Nobuo Uematsu from FFVII: AC OST

WOW. Can't believe it's been a year more than a year since my first post. This blog works more like an embarrassing time capsule rather than a deep cave where you can shout and listen to the echo of your emo rants (well, for me at least =P).

So, I'm just gonna do what I came here to do then: throw some recent and random thoughts and vanish for another half a year or so. It's Reunion time!! (subtlety ain't my thang...expect to see more of that)

I wanna watch Green Hornet. Jay Chou Kato sounds cute.
Mosquitoes should go extinct. 
Nah, I'm not that evil. FEMALE mosquitoes should go extinct.
If Google were to be reincarnated as a person, he's gonna be the second coming of Kimi Raikkonen for me.
FF7 has the most under-developed well-thought-out premise I have ever encountered. (Not that I've played the game(s) before, but Wikis make life easier..and cheaper)
iTunes is playing Meet Me Halfway right now. 
Kusuriuri!!!!!!
VDT adaptation? What VDT adaptation??
Yorinuki Gintama-san's 4th OP kicks-a**. The 4th ED as well. And it's a guy singing, btw.
Finally completed Mafia Wars: Italy. Not gonna play it anymore. EVAR.
Cloud Strife needs to have more lines in the adaptations.
The further the branches extend, the deeper the roots grow. I need to rephrase that.
The world's not gonna end in 2012. Jenova's just coming for a visit.
The Star has a review for The King's Speech, but why I can't find any showings yet? X(
Tvtropes.org > George Benard Shaw.
Recently turned into a FFVII fan. If I can't be any more obvious.
April anime season better not fail me.
The title of this blogpost is not wasabi. 
I believe Mark Zuckerberg hacked into his own page. I mean, Wad's da big deal anyway?! (This was the 2nd reason I was forced to quit MW)
Rumbel Subs subordinates urgency to quality. So how much longer do I have to wait for my Gintama movie??!!
Da Dongle is almost hitting this month's 5GB mark already. WTH?!
I overused the word 'Awesome'. Needa find a new superlative.
I'm just using this post so that I can laugh at myself half a year later.
Note to self: Haruhi's 10th movel coming out on May 25th. Hint: I don't mind if my birthday present comes late this year.
Why is there a 'space limit' for digital information?? Someone who's thought of an idea to fix this is gonna be effing awesome...rich.
'TUDIA!' is a frequently used Baba Malay word.
I'm starting to realise that what I've been doing is plain plagarising the Gintama episode title styles. SHIMATTA!!!!
I've mentioned Gintama 4 times....5 times.


Okay, I think dat should be enough procrastination for today. 
Happy Valentine's Day Eve!

Thursday, January 27, 2011

Seriously?

I have been looking back at my previous posts and realised that it has all been written by me. Moi. Like seriously? It doesn't sound like me at all right now ! hehehe...guess the phrase "change is the only constant" is only here to stay...forever, right? :P

Well, I've been pissed for being pissed on at times. And most of it i can trace back to my own selfish actions. So guess i deserved most of it after all. But for some, it is unanticipated and unwelcomed at all. For doing what i've been doing well all this while, that's not my fault.

But then again, i tell myself, to be hurt and care about what others do means that i do care about that person and their actions. And for me who only allow a few ppl into my comfort zone at a time, my guts don't seem to favour you into my backyard. I don't know why, but i just don't feel like it. I really don't know why.

And for those who really have granted access into my inner soul window, sorry for neglecting you these past months. I have really been myself. The usual, selfish self. That, that i hate, and fail to change no matter how hard i tried. Perhaps i din try hard enough, perhaps that's the lesson i have to learn in this life --- to be hated, to be ignored and finally to lose. And the vicious circle starts all over again.

Perhaps this journey is to discover myself. To discover my true strengths and to find out what i am always attached with and yet to realise that all i need is inner strength but not external confirmation of my existence.

Life seems like an illusion most of the times, but the pain is so real, so probably it's half-half. :P

Or maybe this is just the cyclical hormonal thing that affects normal ppl and it'll soon go away as if nothing has ever happened. Very likely indeed judging by the past trends.

A new year has dawned. No new year resolutions. Just take one day at a time. Maybe, maybe life would just be more exciting that way instead of trying to uncover ppl's intentions all day, when there's really none in the first place.

And yet, if there's none behind all those facades, i might get freaked out thinking i m somehow mentally unstable or something. Yet again, i try to console myself this is a cyclical thing.

This too, shall pass :)

Monday, November 15, 2010

One day...

One day...i will find true happiness...

I am pretty sure that's the day when i died...or close to...i don't know...

But right now, the thing i fear the most is to graduate soon...next year...

I seemed to be so perfectly comfortable here since Day 1. Yes. Day 1.

Very rare for a person who don't adjust fast and well.

It feels like I've known this place for a looooong time :')

And the people too.

And now, every day, i think of the days without these fun people i've come to call friends.
Those who share my tears and fears.
Those who listen to my philosophies and craps.
Those who comfort me and scold me when need to.

Yes. They say it's the best years of your life. I believe it to the core. I still do now. :)

For a person who can't let go of the past. I seemed to be able to once I am here.

But then again, once i leave this wonderful place I call second home, I might be unable to let go of this period of shared memories.

Sigh.

What to do? Just cherish every moment while you can right?

Continuing here won't be the same anymore for sure. Faces changed. Atmosphere changed. And most important of all, the companions are all out in the real world. Chasing their own lives. No more shared memories as integrated and sweet as the past few years.

Well, for now, the only thing I could do is to enjoy every passing moment and tell myself that it's all an illusion, a dream...conjured in my head.

Nothing really happen, right?

:')(

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Think

Do I think before I act? Most of the time, I just don't. Because it's hard work.

I don't mind if my carelessness causes me any loss. I never care. Never will. I'll just sigh and move on. But the thing is, the thing you care less, never happen. The thing that you're afraid of the most will often recur in your life. Again and again. In different times, different scenarios, different people, different lives, same thing.

What if what I do affect people around me? I should've been more careful right? What if I'm determined to be more careful, accountable and hardworking, for the sake of others and not for my own ends? Will unfortunate things still happen? Doesn't matter really, don't you think? As long as you let go of any need to please people, to have people always like you for who you are only at your best, to save face, there's actually nothing to worry about in the end.

Then what is left? Me? Who is me? What do I have? What is permanent? What is the measure of permanent? Tangibles? Intangibles? Nothing? Something from nothing? Nothing is something? Nothing = something?

Confusion leads to understanding. That's what he said. I think so too.

Suspend all egos and things will become clearer. That's what he said. I can't for now. My ego is too heavy for me to let go totally for now.

I don't know. Don't ask me. I never know a thing for certain. Never think I will ever.

I just want to get some rest. Any rest.

Sometimes, I feel like I have forgotten where I am when I'm too focused on work.

Sometimes, I feel like I have forgotten who I am when I'm dealing with too many things consciously.

Right now, I can't even tell you for sure whether I am still alive or already been dead for some time.

Seriously.